Time Keeps Moving On…

Isn’t it funny how no matter what is going on in your own life, everyone else just keeps on moving? Your whole world could be crashing down around you but people are still going to work, going to school, shopping, running errands, getting married, having babaies…you get the idea. My life this year seems to be filled with an endless array of events that stop MY world in it’s tracks. My illness, coming to grips with new symptoms, the death of Mike’s uncle, the sicknesses of my grandparents (Kidney failure for my Grandmother and Bladder Cancer for my Grandfather), the deaths of 2 close family friends, the illness and death of my Aunt Frannie…it doesn’t seem like it’s ever going to end. Obviously we all go through various tragedies and problems in our lives. That’s just the way this system is. This year, however, seems to have been exceptionally bad. And it is sucking the happiness and energy right out of me. It feels like every time I seem to get a handle on my attitude and I’m starting to feel more positive, something else happens. I haven’t felt like “Chronic Sunshine” lately, and that just aggravates me.

I also think part of the problem is our townhouse. Our basement has flooded several times since we’ve been here and it smells musty and moldy and there isn’t too much we can do about it. They have a sump pump down there but we sit so low on the water table that it is constantly working, which leads it to break down every once in awhile. We also have extremely hard well water, it actually turns our tub and sink orange from all the junk in it. So I don’t think that helps either. We’re trying to look for another place, but there’s not alot out there right now.

Anyways, enough grumbling. I know I’ll get my positivity back. I have an amazing support system: my husband, family and friends. And I’m thankful for what I still have. I really am. It’s just that every once in awhile, you need to have a “Poor Me” day, when you can vent, have a good cry and an ice cream. Only then can you pick yourself up and keep going with the rest of the world.